سمعت هذه القصة من سليمان قناو الذي سمعها بأذنيه من مصور عمل لعشرين عامًا في القناة الوطنية ويعيش في فيرونا. لم ير قناو المصور منذ أشهر:
عقله أصبح أخف. كان هناك وحش داخله. عندما تحدث معها لأول مرة راودته رغبة في أكلها، ثم وضع اصبعه داخل حنجرته وتقيؤ أشلائها في البحر على الأسماك.
“أنا خائف،” قال لي ذات مرة.
كان خائفاً من أن يتملكه الوحش. أن يأتي اليوم الذي ينتفض من داخله ويستولي عليه مثل استيلاء ثعبان منقض على فريسته. كان يمقت الحيوانات، وفي طفولتنا كنا نصطاد القطط ونحرقها بالغازولين وأعواد الثقاب.
كنا رجالاً حقيقيين وقتها.
And so these used ideas
here worn like clothes
will be compensated, without apology,
by the softest chords of their instrument.
— Jim Jarmusch, “Verdict with Guitar”
We were drinking homemade alcohol in a small rented apartment in Tripoli the night they stole the statue of the naked women and the gazelle from the city center. That was the last naked woman in Tripoli, possibly even in Libya. No one knows where they took it, but the word on the street is that they destroyed and threw it away or that they sold it.
We were six young men drinking homemade alcohol in a country torn apart by civil war, and for four years since the uprising in 2011 we had all suffered from humiliations inflicted by the rebel militias on almost everyone.
Four of the young men who were sitting with me in the small apartment had been incarcerated for protesting in front of Sudan’s Embassy during the Sudanese protests back in July 2012. The militia that caught them follows the same ideology as the ruling regime of Sudan. The Muslim Brotherhood and their Islamist and rebel allies were the rulers of the streets back then and nowadays too. Another had been captured because he is descended from an oppressed Libyan tribe some of whose men had fought the rebels in 2011. We talked about Denmark, Germany, the beautiful lives that awaited us if we could some day get out of this god-forsaken land.
Everything had became tiring lately, the war and what was happening around us and the memories. Even to think of it is tiring, or write about it.